Sunday, January 07, 2018

1 Year Churchiversary

I made up a word today!
I was sitting in church this morning and realized that I had officially been attending my church for one year! I told my friend it was my churchiversary and we both had a good laugh.

But in all seriousness, I'm so thankful for the year at Faith Church. God has been so good to me to allow me to attend church with this body of believers. I feel challenged and blessed every Sunday I attend. I'm still getting to know people, but I know the more I get involved the more people I'll get to know. I've always known just about everyone at the churches I've attended so this is a change for me. But I do have a good core group of people that I know and we sit together and encourage one another.

Thank you Lord for providing for me in this way. A year ago I was so desperate for this kind of feeling and right now I'm so thankful that I have it.

Wednesday, January 03, 2018

Breaking Bad Habits and Pursuing Better Ones

This year more so than other years I've been feeling challenged in making a change in my life. It all started with my word for the year. I knowI've thought doing this before, and I may actually have chosen a word in previous years, but this year feel different to me.

My word for this year is Intentional.

Intentional in:

  • how I eat
  • friendships
  • taking care of my house
  • my job
  • doing fun projects
  • reading
  • time digging in to the Bible 
The word can cover so many areas on my life. 

I feel like over the last few months (which were very busy, I'll give myself that) I would think to myself "I need to do (fill in the blank)." And then just sit on the couch and not do anything, but watch tv and scroll thru facebook or pinterest. I imagined people driving by my house and saying "Oh, look. There's Jamie on her couch as usual." I don't want that to be me. I want to be someone who follows thru with what she says she'll do. And that has to start with what I tell myself I'm going to do. 

So here I am, January 3rd, I haven't turned on my tv (also part of a fasting and praying season I'm going through) since I got home from Christmas break. I'm cooking good quality, whole30 meals. I've spent time in the Word the last two morning and worked on reading my Bible study book in the evenings. I've been reading. Yes, reading books for fun. I really LOVE reading. I'm attempting to text friends I haven't kept in good contact with lately. I'm working to do things in my classroom to be a better teacher for my students. It all feels so good! 

My prayer is that it doesn't fizzle out after a few days. I have a tendency to do that. 

I just feel like this is going to be a great year! I don't know what the Lord has in store for me this year, but I want it to be focused first on Him. 

Hello 2018! Let's do this! 

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

Feeling Refreshed and Ready to Go!

Can I just tell you that I am so extremely thankful that we have Thanksgiving break every year?! This year especially I needed the 3 extra days off of school. There was the temptation to complain because so many other schools had the entire week off, but I chose to be thankful for the 3 days off. And oh boy am I thankful!

Before the break there was one word to describe how I was feeling all the time.

T-I-R-E-D

I was constantly feeling tired. And feeling that way all the time was making me feel short tempered, anxious, sad, discouraged...you get the idea.

One of the discouraging things lately has been teaching. My class this year is much harder than the class I had last year. I really shouldn't compare them to previous groups, but they really are night and day. I've come to realize that because of the easier class last year I have become lazy in my teaching. I'm embarrassed to say that many of my lessons were me in front of my class flying by the seat of my pants. My college professors would be mortified. Who am I kidding! I'm mortified typing it!
Over the break I came to the understanding (with myself) that I need to plan better for this class. I know that they have been learning new things this year, but I also know that I have not been giving them my best. So Sunday afternoon I spent about an hour at school planning. I planned out this week and got some of the planning done for the upcoming weeks before Christmas. It felt so good to get that done/started! It gave me an excitement for the lessons coming up. And I feel like as a class we are going to be much more productive.

I'm so thankful for the short break that really helped me feel refreshed and ready to tackle the last few weeks before Christmas break. These next few weeks are going to FLY! And I'm gearing up for the craziness that is coming very quickly. It will all be good things, but you know how it goes. December is busy busy busy.

Friday, October 06, 2017

Blessing

This was a rough week for me. I was super emotional, down, and just generally in a funk all week long. To say I'm happy the weekend is here is an understatement. But I also had this sweet little blessing today. A few of my boys kept "sneaking" behind me to leave little notes on my desk. It melted my heart and definitely brought a smile to my face. I'm thankful that even though I may not have been in a great mood all week or been the most patient teacher my little students love me and like that I'm their teacher.

Monday, September 25, 2017

A New {School} Year -- Time to get my act together!

Just starting the 4th week of school. Still don't think I've found my groove. Last year the groove came easily. This year not so much. It's not that I'm not familiar with the material. It's more that the group of kiddos this year is a little tougher. And I'm just plain old tired. As I write that last sentence I'm immediately reminded that I need to start eating better and exercising. I know that combination will make a huge difference on my energy level while at work.

Now that I've come to this realization I'm ready to make a change. I need to plan out meals and I need to plan weekly workouts.
*It's time to get my act together.
*It's time to feel better about myself again.
*It's time to have more energy.
*It's time to be the best teacher I can be.

Feeling sluggish does not help me to be a good teacher. And that's just not going to cut it.

Saturday, July 29, 2017

Even If

I've been mulling over what to write about for several weeks now. I've had this idea of writing about how content I've been lately in my singleness. I'd think about it periodically and never get the chance to write it out. I really thought I was feeling content, and then last week I totally lost it one night. It's been a while since I've cried over being single, but for some reason it hit me hard last week.

Even now, I'm not sure what to write.

I was listening to a sermon on singleness recently and was reminded by the pastor that some people have been created to be single. It's not that anything is wrong with them (which I sometimes wonder about myself--a lie I have to not listen to) it is just what the Lord has planned for those people. And sometimes I wonder if I'm one of those people. That is a hard thing for me to swallow. I've always just assumed I'd get married and have kids.

I've been praying a lot about this. Praying that my heart would be ok with whatever God has planned for my life. The most recent Mercy Me song "Even If" has really helped me as I've been working through this.
I know You're able and I know You canSave through the fire with Your mighty hand
But even if You don't
My hope is You alone 
They say it only takes a little faith
To move a mountain
Well good thing
A little faith is all I have, right now
But God, when You choose
To leave mountains unmovable
Oh give me the strength to be able to sing
It is well with my soul
I tear up just about every time I hear this song, but it's been good.  I need the reminder that God can do anything and that no matter what He chooses to do with my life my hope is in Him. Whether I'm single or married and have children God is on His throne and He is enough.

So as I live day to day and follow the path God has for me I will work at spending quality time in God's Word. I need my focus to be on Him and less on myself. I don't want to become a bitter single woman. I know a few of those and it isn't pretty. I want to be a woman who seeks after God and shows God's love to all around her. I want people to look at me and see Jesus.

Saturday, July 08, 2017

Kickin' it with the Cows 5k

Today was a big day!
Today I am checking another thing off of my 40x40!
Today I ran/walked a 5k!

I am so excited that I did this! I've been working for months to meet this goal. I ran about half of the 3.1 miles. 6 months ago I wouldn't have been able to run that much. I'm totally fine with how much I ran. My goal was to finish. I had no idea how long it would take me so I had no goal of a time. I thought it'd take me an hour and it only took me 45 min. So I was pleasantly surprised.

I ran with a good friend and her daughter. She was so kind and stuck with me even though I walked so much. She set goals as we ran and pushed me to keep going. I feel so blessed by her friendship!